i'm back. this time without the precise and calculated goal of displaying my need for an artistic and observant outlet of my frustrations/depression/insecurities, all of which come back like a plague with retroviral activity. i miss someone. is it possible to fall into simple, harmless infatuation with a simple and harmless person within a few days? my walk through this journey of chemistry, or of what society calls love, has been marked with memories of unnecessary struggle and unassisted misfortune, yet, warmth and irrationality always seems to throw down its belligerent gauntlet in a melting pot of emotions.
texting someone at the airport, ready to leave forever at 5 in the morning, listening to wilco's summerteeth album, and waiting, stoned, for the time it takes for the sun to rise only puts the pot into magnification.
unassisted misfortune: --falling in love with someone you just met a few days ago is unassisted misfortune in love itself.
unassisted misfortune part 2: thinking you're in love with someone, then finding out they're moving forever the day that you have to and later, purposefully pass on spending time with.
...yes, i'm still a mess, but i don't think i'm insane.
