subliminal thoughts

i'm not very good at this anymore and not that i ever was. but perhaps with the advent of a new school year filled with simplistic success (by my own standards), i can accompany it with a more consistent blog schedule. often, the alternatives criticize consistency as some sort of evil institution that traps and vacuums the very marrow out of our fragile spines. I disagree. beyond the realm of social constructions and standardized standards stands only ourselves. the ontological question should be one that asks who we are not in the common, boring sense of "inner richness of life" but rather what is outside of it. consistency is no paradox when coupled with a life of happiness and yet it is something i lack and have recently desired for. yeah. thats not true.