beefheart

today capitan beefheart died and a little part of me died with him. my mind is racing faster and faster as each minute passes to be lost forever. another late night, this one later than most, has at least given me the chance to give a brief goodnight to the moon and play some christmas songs just quiet enough to not wake anyone but myself. i can't sleep again and i feel more conflicted than ever. my mind seems to wander outside of its normal confines, intensifying what i can only describe as an eerie "out-of-body experience." it's ironic and darkly humorous the way things work sometimes. how feelings and emotions and the way we perceive things can change faster than our mind can even comprehend. we feel sadness and all of its potency often before we don't know why. and every now and then, bursts of happiness for no explicit reason. that's how i felt on the day that captain beefheart died. goodnight moon, and good luck to us all.